Texts to Mum in the afterlife


2013-04-05 8:40 AM
So that’s that. Where do I send these now? To remove you from my Rogers My-5 would be to admit you’re gone.

2013-04-08 10:34 AM
Joey is running around trying to find you. Your house still smells like you.

2013-04-11 6:34 PM
You would love this little guy. He would love you. Not fair.

2013-04-13 7:33 AM
That’s my generous two-week allotment of bereavement time used up. How to go back to normal?

2013-04-13 7:33 AM
How can you be HERE, then not here? Where did you go?

2013-04-16 10:33 AM
E says he’s going to text me the photos he can’t text you. Whatever. I’ll forward. He’s not interested in my texts of dogs.

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2013-04-16 5:29 PM
Where on earth did you hide your safety deposit key?

2013-04-17 1:47 PM
Arrived safe in Rome. Not sure I should have gone away so soon.

2013-04-18 3:47 AM
Can’t sleep. I’m missing you. Feel crazy. Should not have come alone.

2013-04-20 4:41 PM

 2013-04-20 4:43 PM

Just a year ago that we were here in Italy together. Why didn’t I realize this would be hard, coming back?

2013-04-22 11:52 PM
Home safe. My first time home since you died. Boys happy to see me.

2013-04-28 5:22 PM
You got your wish: Hair chopped short. PS: Has Joey has had his shots? Tx.

2013-05-05 8:55 AM
T’s birthday. Keep expecting you to call and say HAPPY BIRTHDAY T-DOG. He’s sad too.

2013-05-07 1:38 PM


Sage 13 today. The old boy can still swim. I’ve told him he can’t join you, not yet. Can’t take it.

2013-05-12 7:17 PM


Joey’s really settled in.

2013-05-12 7:17 PM
Every day I think of some reason to call, and can’t. So hard. When does this stop? Does this stop?

2013-05-14 8:15 AM
Baking powder or baking soda in Nana’s scone recipe? Can’t read your writing.

2013-05-17 12:48 PM

Garden planted! Cue the weeds.

2013-05-19 6:39 PM
Landed safely in Paris. xox

2013-05-23 5:22 PM
We had what, three Paris trips together, you and I? I see you everywhere.

2013-05-26 11:44 AM

First sunny morning in Bourgogne ! You would love this. So beautiful.

2013-05-29 2:15 PM

Rain and Brrrrrrrr.

2013-06-03 4:31 PM
Lyon is gorgeous, but my meeting is tough. Not enough news. I’m missing you. Missing home.

2013-06-16 11:12 PM

Goodbye mum. I hope we did you proud. It was quite a party and I said what I wanted to say, and I didn’t cry saying it. We should have done this when you could come. Everyone loves you so much.

2013-06-20 3:19 PM

Landed safely in Chicago. xox. Overcast but HOT.

2013-06-23 9:23 PM
Sad and homesick.

2013-06-23 10:03 PM

2013-07-30 2:05 PM
I know you worried about all my flying. Weird silver lining of you being gone is that I feel less stressed about stressing you out. We’ve landed safe and sound in Edinburgh.

2013-08-07 10:05 AM

Joey loving cabin-time. Sage really slowing down. Doesn’t want to swim. I know you’d like company, wherever you are. Can you find Murphy (R.I.P.)? Don’t take Sage. Not yet.


2013-08-27 4:59 PM
All your clothes and personal things packed up. I’ve kept everything I think you’d want me to keep. Very sad job. All these bags. I’m sorry.

2013-08-29 6:29 PM
Safe and sound in Amsterdam. I always think these trips will help, getting away, but instead they just highlight away-ness, in all its forms.

2013-09-04 11:58 PM
Home sweet home. I’m tired. Sad.

2013-09-22 8:22 PM
Safely arrived in Barcelona. Remember La Cervaseria in 2009? Still delicious! I miss you.

2013-09-28 11:07 PM
Chris and Kristin’s wedding was fun. I love London, because I know you did too. Remember stumbling accidentally across Burough Mrkt? Like it had been hiding from us all along.

2013-10-11 2:37 PM
I’m going to have to stop it with this. The texting. Need to find a way to stop.

2013-12-01 9:33 AM
Dec 1 = first day for Handel’s Messiah. How can I NOT tell you this?

2013-12-19 11:12 PM
Did we ever go to the Messiah LIVE together? I can’t remember and it’s killing me. Two women sitting beside me were giggling and TEXTING for the whole first section. I finally hissed: PLEASE STOP.  And they did. Channeling you. 🙂

2013-12-21 6:05 AM
Can’t sleep. Lying here wondering if Christmas will ever feel the same again? Damn we were good at Christmas, you and I.

2013-12-27 12:21 PM
Happy Birthday Mum. You are the best. Always will be. xoxox

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